Work on my fourth novel, Singles In India, has suffered a bit of a set back. This is something that happens to most writers, I imagine; you read through your work – months of slog in this case – and you realise that what is quite brilliant in your head isn’t quite working on paper. Or on the laptop screen in my case.
It is my intention with this book to create a slightly more dysfunctional group than I di with Singles’ Holiday, and perhaps that’s at the root of it. Dysfunctional groups – and I took many of them – don’t make for a calm, easy life – or read. But something wasn’t quite right and it’s best to sort it out now. I think perhaps I was hurrying too much so now I’m going to put all thoughts of deadline out of my mind – not easy! – and write for the pure enjoyment of telling a story and if it’s not finished by November, my deadline, then it’ll be finished sometime after. I’ve gone back to the end of the group’s first full day in Dehli and am picking it up from there again and think it’s better to find out I’m dissatisfied with it now and scrap two hundred and ten pages, rather than when I’m reading it through as a finished novel and then have to scrap four or five hundred.
Whatever happens, when it’s finally out I hope you’ll all enjoy it, but I know that if I’m not enjoying it then my readers won’t be either!
I think this is all part of the Uranus-Pluto square occuring on Monday that Lorna Bevan talks about in today’s prediction (www.hareinthemoonastrology.co.uk) Lorna advises me to be patient, farseeing and to leave my growning edge alone. I love Lorna’s predictions; I can always relate to what she says – and she posts the most BEAUTIFUL images to go with her daily predictions on Facebook. Over the last few days my energy has dropped; I feel tired, unwell, ‘got-at’ and it’s a struggle to stay positive and to visualise. I feel as if every aspect of my life is stagnating and so am I. Yet, Lorna says “real changes are happening at the deep structural level transformation…………..at an internal level that cannot be seen or easily grasped”.
I KNOW that is true. I KNOW that if I stay positive, show love and visualise that everything will work out as it should. And Singles In India will be the book it was always meant to be.
Doctor’s appointment later for unwellness – need to get myself sorted out healthwise – and then off to West Sussex for Michelle’s wedding tomorrow, wearing my famous Katie Vale hat. (That’s Katie Vale who’s in this month’s Vogue!!) I’m very excited for Michelle and thrilled to be a part of her and Trevor’s Big Day.
