In the last twenty-four hours I’ve tried very hard to find another acting job as Ladykillers is in its last four weeks. Boo! Boo! Sob! Sob!
I was gutted to find out that my planned trip to Antigua next month has ruled me out of applying for several juicy parts. So, the way I’ve decided to deal with this disappointment is to put myself forward for loads of other parts, thus turning a negative into a positive. I much prefer to be pro-active and have never been one to let the grass grow under my feet. And, the nature of the world of acting is thus; if you can’t take the rejection get out of the audition room. Next!
But, my new agent has cast a rehearsed reading of Still Single and Going Grey, which will take place while I’m out of the country and this has left me feeling gutted. Gutted that I can’t go along to watch and take advantage of the occasion to network, but also – and it pains me to admit this – the uneasy stirrings of jealousy towards the actors who are performing the reading. This is unlike me as I always wish people well, believing that we all share in each others success and unkind thoughts always come back on you. And it’s shown me a side to myself that I don’t like very much!!
Of course, I could cancel the trip, but I need to go as there are things to be sorted out and I’m also looking forward to it so I have no grounds for complaint. So I want to publicly declare my support for SSAGG, for KSW Productions and all those concerned.
I know that what’s for me won’t pass me by and perhaps sometimes we need these little niggles to make us take a look at ourselves and check our stinking thinking!
Hi Elaine
It would seem that on face value that you have a real dilemma. In my life I have had many similar situations;
We have wanted to buy our dream house that fell through, turned out to be the best thing for us. I have been offered jobs in the Middle East that were financially amazing, big house, private school fees etc. However, mum had just been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and I didn’t want to leave her. Turned out to be the best decision I ever made. Go with your gut instinct, mine has never let me down. Plus, making vitamin D at this time of year has to be good.
Pete x
Thanks, Pete! I know what you say is true and enjoying my lovely house will do me the world of good. In the Grand Scheme of Things something else will come along for me. Xx